andai itu takdirnya,sbrlah hati..

ak xtau nk ckp kat sape aper y hapen 2 me
ak xmau sshkn kwn..
ak xtau sp y phm ak..
sume org ak rs xphm ak..
langsung..
even kwn rapat..

sumtimes ak rs xdisayangi..
sumtimes ak rs hopeless..
sumtimes ak rs useless..
sumtimes ak rs ak nie suatu kesilapan y wujud atas muka bumi nie..

knaper sume nie happen 2 me?
ak kuat sgt ker smpi Tuhan nk duga ak cam nie skali?
ak pompuan
ak manusia
ak br nk bgn then jatuh tersembam
its hard get up back 2 normal..

sumtimes ak memberontak
tp deep down in me ak rs bslh..

ak letey jd camnie
bl ak nk kuat??
mmg
Allah xlontarkan suatu dugaan itu diluar kemampuan hambaNya..
tp ak jgk manusia..
ak ader rs sakit
ak ader rs kecewa..
ak ader sumer felim..

sakit sgt bl dier ckp jz 20% 2 me..
he's sum1 that i give my heart..
ak dh bkk pintu hati ak ntk trima org lain..
tp nie y ak dpt?
truk sgt ker aper y ak bt?
truk sgt ker ak nie?

kalau lah ak blh buat aper y blh ak buat
nk jer ak disappear from his life..
nk jer ak pegi tanpa berita
then he would get a news about my death..
tp ak tau..
ak bkn saper2 ntk dier..
there's no felim 2wards me..
ak biarkn begitu hubungn kami
sbb ak tau y dier xkn penah akn menaikkn percentage 2 wlau aper ak bt skalipun..
mayb for him,skali sakit xkn ader penawarnya..
so ak rs
xperlu berharap lebih ngn aper y kt xpasti..

ak syg dier wit my heart
mungkin ini takdirnya bl kt syg seseorg y dh xsygkn kt lg..
mungkin ini sakitnya
mungkin dier dh rs ak xlyk ntk dier
n i dunt deserve any1 around me

walau sakit mcm mana skalipun..
ak akn teruskn hidup
mmg perit Tuhan jer y tahu
mmg sakit smpi airmata dh kering ntk dititiskn lagi
airmata pown dh xtau nk mengalir sbb aper..

kalau lah dier baca aper y ak tulis nie
i wanna him knw..
u r d best thing i've ever had just now..
tp u also gv so much pain 2 me dat hard 2 recover back..
cintai org y mencintai dirimu then u will find d sweetness..

u'll never knw what in my heart
n what i gone through is all about..
u jz made ure own conclusion..
keep on doing dat..
gud luck..

andai itu takdirnya, sabarlah hati..
ak akn sbr slagi ak blh sabar..