kawin.....T_T

nie ak nk mrapu...
tengah2 penim wat programming matlab ntk neural network yang akan dimuatkan dalam projek ilmiah tahun akhir2 ak nie. ak pn jd lar pen'stalker' fb oram...ngeee...
xtahanny...tengok kawan y dh kawin...n sdg menunggu khadiran cahaya mata...ha3...
rmi dh kawan ak kawin..
kawan sklh rndh..laki y rmi kawin..tup2 kawin..
kawan sklh mngh...ader pue y kawin...n ngh pregnnt.
kawan matrik...classmate ader sorg..dh dpt ank pn..mayb lam progress ntk ank kdua or mayb ank ktiga...ngeee
kawan university...dlm proses nk kawin..bln12 nie nk kawin...n ak tgk dier..mmg sgt sesuai ntk dier kawin.sbb dier dh matang..hu3...
ms klas english for occupational purposes (eop), ak stalker dier..sbb 2 ak blh ckp y dier matang..n cantik..mmg untung lar tunang dier...pilihan y tepat..ngeee...

n y terdekat plak..kakak ak..n mgkn skali ngn abang ak..haih...tinggal ak sorang lar pasni....nk g kbmol pn xder kawan dh..kna g sorg..dh lar ak takut nk parking bwh tnh klu sorg2...drive nyer bknnyer expert sgt...haih....sedey jd ank bongsu nie...fenat2...huk3....

kecuali kakak n abang ak...sbb dorg dh mmg layak ntk kawin pn..mmg dh tua...dh matang...bkn sm umur ngn ak...kik3..

org lain dh nk kawin...y ak nie msh membengom ngn idup sndiri...dgr lagu.lagu korea..xdgr nie lagu nasyid..(sbb dh bosan)..smpi sumer lirik y ak dgr lagu dier sumer ak dh ingt..sgt cpt pengetahuan bahasa korea nie meresap lam otak ak...hua3...
tgk...prangai mcm bdk kecik..bdk xmatang...hua3...
org lain dh ader lagi..nk ader ank...mgkn nk ader cucu plak...(melampau..ha3..)

entah lar..klu nk ckp bnda nie smpi kesudah xabis...hua3...
hidup ak masih lg bnyk terpengaruh dgr korea.(sbb ak minat korea..ngee)..
blh dikatakan ak xmatang lagi lar...
calon suami ak plak nk y jenis mrepek2...cm korean artist..mn nk dpt mcm 2????korean artist jer y cm2...org biasa xder nyer...sbb dorg dh ditrain...hua3...

bila ak nk kawin???
entah...ak pn xtau...n ak xmau tau...y pntg ak nk sara mak bapak ak dl...n buat dier hepi..hopefully dorg akn hepi ms konvo ak nnt...moga3 akn ader kejutan ms konvo ak nnt...
n dilemma ak nk smbg masters...
masters ssh...tp ak rs cm nk smbg..sbb cita2 ak ms taun ptama ak kat u dulu (mcm lama jea ayat), ak nk smbg masters...so skang nie dh ader pluang...
ak apply bnyk tmpt....hopefully akn dpt sumer tempat 2...(tamak)
blh ak wat pilihan..ngeee...

urm...aper lg eh nk mlalut nie...

mintak2 programming ntk develop network ak menjadi....mnx2 di'approve' oleh papa kesyangn ak..ha3....

xderk idea dh...cau luh ah...hua3...2 jea pn nk ckp..
n satu lg nk ckp..dlm umur y cenggini...ak msh lg main zuma..n tembak2 itik...puzzle kartun..lam nset plak 2...so blh main dimana2 shj y ak suka..ha3...inilah sbbny ak xley kawin lg..ikikikikikiki....
n lam nset ak ader app mewarna...heeee..mcm lam ipad ank sdara ak..haikal khawarizmi n irdina azzahara...ntk harris harraz ak xtau pmainn dier aper..ha3....nnt klu dh kuar versi dier.ak tiru gak..kik3...
n pmainn fruit samurai..angry bird pn ader eh...2 abg ak y nk dpt ank y main...hua3....

ckp pn mlalut gak..so conclusion is..AK XLEY KAWIN LG...

: : kna cyapkan programming.kna bwk jmpe supervisor..kna g jmpe kwn mnx tlg forecast.then dh cyap..2 pn klu xder error paper..haish....

k..tata...nyte..

haish

ak xkn lupa aper yang org buat sampai ak menitiskan air mata...wlpn ak dh maafkan setiap inci yang dier buat..tp ak xkn skali2 akn lupa sumer y dier buat 2..
sbb itu adalah pengajaran paling berharga ntk ak terus bangkit.bkn sbg pendendem.tp sebagai seorang yang lebih matang..
dlm semua aspek..
cinta, persahabatan...sumer...

sal Qlate menang lam Piala FA 2012
sblm Qlate beraksi...
ader makhluk Allah y mmg terkenal nyekit kata2nya n xbrapa disukai oleh sumer cosmate ak..(bajet ak disukai lar???)
dier ader ckp...
Qlate vs Sime Darby.
tp ak xsey sokong Qlate..ak nk sokong Sime Darby...

p/s buat si dia....
ingat Qlate akn kalah ker klu mung xsokong???pmain Qlate pn xheran lar klu mung xsokong...
bajet hot jea...mung sapa???
klu mung xsokong pn xkesah lar...negeri ko ader blh msk????(menyakitkan hati)

bkn nk anti negeri2 lain...tp agak2 ah klu nk ckp paper mlibatkan negeri org...

*****************************************
vid nie adalah ntk tatapan sumer
jyj-in heaven..

jgn smpi diri jadi cm2...dlm hidup kt xder putaran balik masa...

jang geun seok - goodbye (anion)

ROMANIZATION

*Goodbye*

o to ka jo ba ra man bo ne yo
jal bu nin sa jo cha go nel su ga om ne yo
shi ri do rok cha ga un ne son ja ba ju ji ma
i je nun gu man bo ne ya ha jo

o to ka jo mo ro jo ga ne yo
ga sum ga duk nun mul man cha o ne yo
e so gam cho bwa do mom chul su ga op so yo
kun ne japanese ji mo tan i ma mul o to ka na yo

sa rang het don gu gi o gun no chi ma ra yo
da shi ut ke he jul da run sa ram man na do
a pun i byol ka ji do gu de ra da heng i jo
sul pun nun mul mo a so a nyong

a mu got do he jun ge om ne yo
mo na ge do sang cho man nam gyon ne yo

byon he gan mam jo cha gam sa ha na jun sa ram
i jen bo ne ya hal ku de rul o to ka na yo
sa rang het don gu gi o gun no chi ma ra yo
da shi ut ke he jul da run sa ram ma na do
a pun i byol ka ji do gu de ra da heng i jo
su mi mo jul man kum a pa wa nun mul hu lo do


heng bok het don gu gi o gun no chi ma ra yo
da shi ut ke he jul da run sa ram ma na do
a pun i byol ka ji gu de ra da heng i jo
da chi mo tan ne sa rang i je bo ne ya ha jo

o jik na rul ut ke hal sa ram gu de pu nin gol
sa rang i gi po jo ma u mi a pa wa do

heng bok het don gu gi o gun no chi ma ra yo
da shi ut ke he jul da run sa ram ma na do
a pun i byol ka ji gu de ra da heng i jo
sul pun nun mul mo a so ne ga hal su i nun il
a nyong..

credits: keikeikhang @ soompi


TRANSLATIONS

*Goodbye*

What should I do? All I can do is gaze at you
I can't even extend you a short greeting
My achingly cold hand, don't hold it
Now I have to let you go

What should I do? You grow further away
My breast fills with tears
Even though I try hard to hide it, I can't stop
What should I do with this love I can't end

Please don't forget that we loved each other
Even if you meet someone else who makes you laugh
The farewell is painful, but I'm glad that it was you that I loved
Gathering my sorrowful tears, goodbye

I've done nothing for you
Pitifully I've only left you with scars

You who embraced even my changed feelings
Now I have to let you go. What should I do?
Please don't forget that we loved each other
Even if you meet someone else who makes you laugh
The farewell is painful, but I'm glad that it was you that I loved
Even though the pain stops my breath and my tears fall

Please don't forget that we were happy
Even if you meet someone else who makes you laugh
The farewell is painful, but I'm glad that it was you that I loved
Now I have to let go of this love that was unable to connect

The only person who will make me smile is you
Even though as my love deepens I feel more pain

Please don't forget that we were happy
Even if you meet someone else who makes you laugh
The farewell is painful, but I'm glad that it was you that I loved
Gathering my sorrowful tears, the only thing I can do is say...

Goodbye

baek ji young - han yeoja (that women)

그여자 (That Woman) Lyric for simple romanization

한 여자가 그대를 사랑합니다 그 여자는 열심히 사랑합니다
Han yojaga gederel saranghamnida Ge yojanen yolsimhi saranghamnida
매일 그림자처럼 그대를 따라다니며 그 여자는 웃으며 울고있어요
Meil gerimjachorom gederel ttaradanimyo Ge yojanen usemyon ulgo issoyo

얼마나 얼마나 더 너를 이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
Olmana olmana do norel irohge baraman bomyo honja
이 바람같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑 계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니
I baram gaten sarang i gojigaten sarang gyesokheya niga narel sarang hagetni

조금만 가까이 와 조금만 한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
Jogemman gakkai wa jogemman hanbal dagagamyon du bal domangganen
널 사랑하는 난 지금도 옆에 있어 그 여잔 웁니다
Nol saranghanen nan jigemdo yope isso ge yojan umnida

그 여자는 성격이 소심합니다 그래서 웃는 법을 배웠답니다
Ge yojanen songgyogi sosimhamnida Gereso utnen bobeul bewotdamnida
친한 친구에게도 못하는 얘기가 많은 그 여자의 마음은 눈물투성이
Chinhan chin-guegedo mothanen yegiga manen Ge yoja eui maemen nunmultusongi

그래서 그 여자는 그댈 널 사랑 했데요 똑같아서
Gereso ge yojanen gedel nol sarang hetdeyo ttokgataso
또 하나같은 바보 또 하나같은 바보 한번 나를 안아주고 가면 안되요
Tto hanagaten babo tto hanagaten babo hanbon narel anajugo gamyon andweyo

난 사랑받고 싶어 그대여 매일 속으로만 가슴 속으로만 소리를 지르며
Nan sarangbatgo sipo gedeyo meil sogeroman gasem sogeroman sorirel jiremyo
그 여자는 오늘도 그 옆에 있데요
Ge yojanen oneldo ge yope itdeyo

그 여자가 나라는 걸 아나요 알면서도 이러는 건 아니죠
Ge yojaga naranen gol anayo almyonsodo ironen gon anijyo
모를꺼야 그댄 바보니까
Morel kkoya geden babonikka

얼마나 얼마나 더 너를 이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자
Olmana olmana do norel irohge baraman bomyo honja
이 바람같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑 계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니
I baram gaten sarang gojigaten sarang gyesokheya niga narel sarang hagetni

조금만 가까이 와 조금만 한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는
Jogemman gakkai wa jogemman hanbal dagagamyon du bal domangganen
널 사랑하는 난 지금도 옆에 있어 그 여잔 웁니다
Nol saranghanen nan jigemdo yope isso ge yojan umnida

Translation

A woman loves you.
The woman loves you wholeheartedly.
She follows you around like a shadow every day.
She smiles but is actually crying.

How much longer do I just have to look at you, alone.
This love that came like wind,
This love that is like a shit,
If I continue this, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer
just a little bit.
Please don’t step back
I, the one who loves you,
is still next to you.
That woman is crying.

That woman is very shy
So she learnt how to smile
Her heart is so full of tear,
She can't even share her story with
her best friend

That's why, that woman
loved you
Cause you were so like her
another fool.
yet another fool
Please give me a hug before you leave me

I want to be loved, dear.
That's all I wanted
She shouts, just in her heart
just in her heart.
No one can hear her
but that woman is still next you

Do you know that
I am that woman?

You don't do you?

Because you are just a fool.

how much
how much longer
Do I have to love you like this

This love that is like a fool
This love that is like a beggar

would you love me?

That woman, who loves you
is still next you and she is still crying.

Read more: http://chacha-31.blogspot.com/2010/11/baek-ji-young-that-woman-lyric.html#ixzz1v2qRfpzP
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made up my mind

think positive...

thats what i get after meeting wit dr. gobi..

wlpn dier race lain. tp still ok..n i respect him..sgt...

sumer race ak respect.

honestly... amik y baik dr org lain untuk mempertingkatkan diri sendiri supaya tidak menjadi typical malay y sejati..

malay skang is very modern y blh trima race lain n amik y elok dr race lain untuk kegunaan diri sendiri..

ak xphm ngn org lain y lbh kurang pandang rendah ngn race ak..

anyway...wahtever lar..asalkn korg bhgia..ak pn xley kata bnyk..mgkn jodoh ak bkn ngn malay..who knows??tp ader ker y nk kat ak??hik3...

it resembles me a lot..

ai2 ak ader post sal nk kuar sgt2 dr umt..

tup2..ms ngah penim nk mnx masters katne..dtg lar offer dr supervisor ak ntk smbg under dier dlm umt..

xkuar g mn2 k...

pikir2..n influenced by others taught..ak rs degree umt+masters umt=product umt

then td p jmpe dr.gobi ntk amik tndtgn sbg referee..ak bangkitkn bnda nie.n dier gtau..its not depend on u u r studyg.it depends on research that u carried out.tittle and field of research that u carried out.

so brain wash ak td..hu3..

nyway ok gak

org ckp research ssh..coursework or mixed mode snang..blaja jea..tp dh 2org lctrr y ak jmpe..dorg ckp..research ok klu awk nk smbg PhD...n ia berkualiti..

so aserny..

ak dh made up my mind...klu smbg masters.smbg kat umt kowt..cz its research..

mmg mixed mode snang..

tp alang2 dh buat masters..y not aim 2 smpi PhD?

lgpn ak rs..bnda y ak buat lam FYP xrmi org buat.

n dr.safiih ckp..blh amik tajuk FYP n ugrade cket then blh dpt masters..PhD pn amik bidang nie n upgrade dr masters...insyaallah dpt PhD..n statusku adalah DR..

heee..amboi tinggi melangit angan2...nk cyapkn FYP pn terguling2 dh aserny..nie kn plak nk amik research..itu lar tanggapan ak..

tp kn...s dr.gobi ckp..y not awk amik nie??awk amik risk cket???klu xjd xper lar..buat y lain plak..atleast awk dpt pengalaman..awk blaja ntk bangunkan kaum awk,family, agama n bnyk lg...

n mgkn ak akn amik risk nie..memandangkan tganu nie dkat ngn qlate..blh lar ak balik slalu..hik3...

n my aim 4 now...abeskn degree..n pas2 tgk rezeki ak kat mn..klu dpt smbg.ak smbg...klu dpt UMT: research..ak akn amik..n aim ak 4 that..cyapkan thesis lam ms staun..jimat taun...mgkn ak blh smbg PhD trus..ngee...amin..smga Allah memudahkan perjalann ak..hee..

: : FYP xcyap lg...ai jumaat ader test EOP:english for occupational purposes..B.A1 xcyap lg..ngeh3...

   angan2 lar bnyk sgt...

(xsalah berangan..kejayaan bermula pd angan2...jgn smpi jd angan2 mat jenin...angan2+usaha=kejayaan)

peluang datang

mcm2 pluang ak dpt skang nie...boleh dikatakan murah rezeki..

1st dapat pluang dr.sabri offer ntk jd fasi kat pulau perhentian..

2nd dapat pluang dioffer p sabah.n i take that offer...ingtkn 3 4ari..abes tinggi 4ari..tp tup2 dpt tentatif program 2minggu berlangsung.program..meliputi sabah sarawak..haish...berat ati dh nk p..

   1)sbb lama sgt

   2)program 2 program anak angkat

   3)tiket flight kna tanggung sndri..

   4)parents xkasik

   5)tup2 aini msk meeting, dier ckp spelek duit y kna ader ntk pegi sabah sarawak adalah RM800..fuh..kt sribu..mn ak nk korek duit bnyk cm2..dh lar blm keje...n program 32 berlangsung lps abes blaja..kira ak dh bkn student UMT..jz alumni.

bnyk bnda lg nk kna gna duit..dh bnyk ak gna duit...stop lar dl bnda2 cmni..mmg yea..org ckp klu nk keje kna bnyk sijil..tp klu rezak kantoi watper...dh lar ak dh nyawa2 ikan rezak..nsb baik ader nyawa ikan..klu xderk nyawa ikan mmg dh lm ak gone..hee...

then td ms duk lam meeting.presiden HIMMAT ckp nm ak termasuk lam snarai nama lasbela p Thailand plak..kna p interview hujung minggu nie..aish..pluang ok..tp ak rs akn gna duit plak asernya..mmg exciting..tp mslhny ongkos..xnk sshkn org lain..so rsny baik ak balik rmh..sbb dh lm ak xblk rmh..dh dkt sbln asenya..dh bnyk kali ckp ak nk balik tp xbalik gak..bnyk bnda dtg on d spot..peluang...hua3...

xper lar...lepaskan pluang nie..mungkin akan ader hikmah sbaliknya..ak dh meroyan duk kat UMT nie..dh lm xblk..nk balik gak...hua3..

then cuti midsem nie ader lar plak program UMT ntk bakal graduan..haish..aper lak..ak nk balik nie..isyk3...

bnyk bnda berlaku...

bak kata kak sol..senior math ak..skang nie ngh buat masters maths kat UMT.dier ckp..nk dkt2 grad nie bnyk lar bnda y akan jd..kdg2 akn melambatkan langkah kaki ini..kadang2 mempercepatkan lagi langkah kaki, hayunan tangan...anyway..trima jea...ngn redho...

klu mak ayah xkasik p tmpt jauh 2 bnyk bnda y dier pikir.tp kengkadang diri ini xdpt trima n sesekali memberontak n nekad..(sesekali ker?bkn slalu ker??)

awl2 sem ari2..mslh ngn subjek elektif..skang nie bnyk program y HIMMAT anjurkan..y sumenya sijil mahal n ok..n tmbh ngn FYP y ak xtau knaper ak xley dpt carik dependent n independent variable..cm xgerak jea FYP ak..kik3...mgkn lps nie..dkt2 nk grad...dkt2 final..mslh ngn FYP tentang result n report..submit lar present lar..paper lar..ader mslh sistem ngn sistem bergraduat ker...mcm2..anyway..FIGHTING!!!!till d end...selangkah lagi untuk menggenggam segulung ijazah...insyaallah..aminn...

BENGANG: ngan sistem pentadbiran n keselamatan UMT...

- ai2 kna sound sbb sticker kete sticker 2010/2011..mslhnya skang nie..ak dh nk abes..tggl 3bln lg nk abes..nk suh ak apply sticker lain..RM3/5 lg kna kuar..bl dh duit xderk nie..mmg sumer berkira...even sposen pn berkira...(mn 20sen sy???ha3)sp y tau dialog nie mmg akn ingt sumer ah..ha3...berbalik kpd bengang ak..skang nie br nk sound student ntk amik sticker lain..mmg x lar ak nk bt..abeskn duit ak jer..dh lar procedur cket pnyer menyampah...nk suh ak apply..mmg x lar...sori cket...(bl dh final year.mmg otai cket)..

- skang nie nk ader karnival kebudayaan plak..ok lar..nk buat karnival ok lar..klu xkacau tmpt letak kete 2..nie kna kosongkan..tmpt kosong y mmg xkn diguna oleh sp2 cket pnyer besar...y ko nk susahkan student y bawak kete 2 knaper?klu dh xnk student bwk kete ckp..jgn nk susahkan kami y bwk kete..tmpt letak kete plak..mak ai..cket pnyer jauh..klu nk g lib or klas ngn kete 2 mmg pikir 2x ah...tmpt letak kete dh sparuh jln nk g klas n lib...klu nk g kompleks siswa lg ah..xyah ko nk ssh2 idupkn enjin kete..jln jer..sbb sm jauh jer ko nk p amik kete..haish..sistem pengurusan UMT amat tidak betul sekarang ini..sangat teramat..

- pemakaian kad matrik..sblm nie buat bodoh jea klu student xpki kad matrik..skang nie ngh menggila ngn pki kad matrik n klu xpki kna tulis nama..haish..ak pelik lar..klu nk bt sistem cm2..bt lar dr awal..jgn nk hangat2 taik ayam..tme xderk duit menggila nk saman student..clap cket jea parking,kna saman.xpki kad matrik kna 2lis nama a.k.a saman lar 2..tme bnyk duit buat bodoh jea...pas2 keselamatan kat pintu pagar utama 2..tau lar nk suh org slow..klu dh tau nk suh org slow spy guard blh tgk driver kete 2..bt leklok lar..nie buat zigzag..klu luas ruangan dier xper..nie cket pnyer sempit..nie ngam2 jea ntk kete slekoh..klu kna ngn org y xbrapa nk fasih bwk kete xker accident??tlanggar pagar besi kebanggaan 2???xker haru??pas2 kuar ah SAMUDERA..haiya...dh 2 hangat2 taik ayam gak..tme rajin bt spot check bsr2an..klu dh mls..pns...xbt..duk lam pondok jea..isyh..pelik lar ak..

aper2 pn..guard y jaga UMT mmg kekwat..bajet berkuasa...ha3..ader ak kisah????

dh ah..mata mengantuk ah...overdose tdo pg ak ingt..so kna tdo mlm plak...

: : esk klas kul1-2

: : lusa xder klas siang..mlm jea ader klas..2 pn kul8-9..hi333...

NYTE...

dah tahun3 rupanya..

tanggal 17january2012..ak dh free ngn subjek sem5 yang sumer baru..tp PITA/FYP blom lg..(T_T)
n ak still idup time2 gni pn sbbkn PITA lar..klu tak idoknyer ak nk stay up...smpi xsedar masa berlalu..acheche....
dh mulaa idup ngn taun3 nie...ak rs cm..xtdo..tdo lwt dh cam biase jea...cam dh rutin...
n baru stgh ari ak xidup ngn buku...duk sesajer jea..tgk citer...nk bt proposal mls lagi..hua3...n ak dh rasa cam kekok..slalu duk ats krusi mngadap meja stdy...hu3...nk ckp rajin uuu..hua3...
baru cyap sumer y kna anta..
esk kna anta proposal n journal y digunakan lam proposal 2..
then lps 2 kna pulun buat pp...
nk kna present nie..tp ak xphm aper y ak buat..kuang3...
mata ak dh nk tcabut duk mngadap lappy nie..
dh lar xtdo...haiyaa...pasni nk tdo ah..hua3...
tp kejap jea..kna bgn awl..sbb nk kna anta awl2 pagi..huk3...

: : mrapu jerk..kpala dh sakit 2mlm berturut2 xtdo nie...
sem dh stat cuti dh...lps nie ssh nk cri mkn...makcik blakang dh nk 2tup kdai dier...
oh makcik..jgn 2tup lg kdai...saya nk makan..sy xley idup klu xmkn...huk3..nnt sy dpt kete makcik 2tup lar nk 2tup pn..tg makcik...
biler kete ak nk cyap nie...ak nk cri mkn..nk mkn aper klu kete xderk...
ma dh xkasik pinjam kete dier dh...hurm....
nk amik mto..lesen xderk..nie lar dilema sorg y xderk lesen mto bl dh terdesak..hua3...
k ah..nk smyg.dh lm msk waktu..kuang3...